Simply trusting every day

Simply trusting every day;
Trusting through a stormy way;
Even when my faith is small,
Trusting Jesus, that is all.

    Trusting as the moments fly,
    Trusting as the days go by,
    Trusting Him, whate'er befall,
      Trusting Jesus, that is all.

Brightly doth His Spirit shine
Into this poor heart of mine;
While He leads I cannot fall,
Trusting Jesus, that is all.

Singing if my way be clear,
Praying if the path be drear;
If in danger, for Him call,
Trusting Jesus, that is all.

Trusting Him while life shall last,
Trusting Him till earth is past,
Till His gracious advent call,
Trusting Jesus, that is all. 


(Edgar P. Stites)

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*Nguatin banget nih lagu, sumpah. Emang bener, mau susah kayak apaan juga, bottom line-nya cuma satu : Trusting Jesus, that is all. Mau iman lemah, iman cetek juga, pasti diterima. Mau gimana-gimana juga, intinya balik lagi ke "Trusting Jesus, that is all". Mau ngeri-ngeri macem singa tuh para profesor, mau dibantai kayak apaan juga, mau diabisin hidup-hidup sekalipun, intinya tetap : "Trusting Jesus, that is all"

Pertanyaan kegalauan boleh segudang, ngeri-ngeri tesis dan mid defense (apalagi ntar, final defense), bisa ga abis-abis kalo dipikirin, bayangin masa depan kagak jelas juga mulesnya amit-amit, but it's all covered up dengan satu kalimat : "Trusting Jesus, that is all".

Ngga usah semangat-semangatan menggebu2 kalo emang lagi ga semangat, ga usah sok heroik pengen sempurna jadi ibu, istri, mahasiswa, ga usah malu kalo sambil ngerjain tesis nangis-nangis frustrasi karena ga bisa, ngga usah ngerasa minder kalo iman cetek abis-abisan, ga usah ngerasa perlu menjadi orang kuat kalo emang lagi lemah. Tapi, biar sedang berada di titik terbawah dalam hidup sekalipun, satu hal yang perlu untuk tetap dan selalu dilakukan : trusting as the days go by, trusting as the moments fly, trusting Him whatever befall, trusting Jesus that is all. Dan ga perlu percaya Yesus dengan yakin banget tanpa keraguan. I mean, gw manusia biasa, gimana mungkin punya iman sempurna. Tapi biar iman ga sempurna, biar iman lemah gini, tetap aja percaya, sebisanya yang kita bisa aja, ntar Tuhan sendiri yang tambahin iman kita, bukannya kita. Well, istilahnya, mana bisa sih sebenernya manusia mempercayai hal-hal yang ngga kelihatan secara kasat mata? Jadi, kalo bisa percaya sama Tuhan, itu anugerah.

Simply trusting every day. Percaya sama Tuhan ngga bisa hanya saat lagi pengen percaya aja. Di saat ngga bisa percaya pun, mesti tetap percaya, karena percaya sama Tuhan itu yang akan jadi kekuatan ngejalanin hidup. Simply trusting every day may not be a simple task, but let us make this thing simple : only trust Him, only trust Him. That is all, ngga pake embel-embel lagi, ngga pake tapi kan, tapi kannnn...sejuta tapi kalo dicari ga akan ada habisnya, daripada buang-buang energi, mending percaya aja sama rencana Tuhan.

"Trusting Him, whatever befall, trusting Jesus that is all." My prayer today and forever.